Ok, so we must be on a very similar path. I decided very recently that I need to take care of me instead of looking to others to take care of me. It came after, I also, felt sensitive to a loss of trust. And like you, I can usually lash out, and in this case I did. I regret it AND I think it led me to this path. I know I'm the villain in a couple of peoples story but I don't have to be the villain in my own story.
This part: "As I said before, I’m not rushing myself through this depressive cycle, nor am I rushing myself through this period of grief. I’m taking baby steps through both." And also I LOL'd at full bundles on the coochie, because uh...relatable. lol
"Everything fucking hurts, but everything is still fucking here, and it is with that knowledge that I lean completely in to this vulnerability, this uncertainty, this hope." Beautiful and deeply relatable, sending you hugs.
Ok, so we must be on a very similar path. I decided very recently that I need to take care of me instead of looking to others to take care of me. It came after, I also, felt sensitive to a loss of trust. And like you, I can usually lash out, and in this case I did. I regret it AND I think it led me to this path. I know I'm the villain in a couple of peoples story but I don't have to be the villain in my own story.
This part: "As I said before, I’m not rushing myself through this depressive cycle, nor am I rushing myself through this period of grief. I’m taking baby steps through both." And also I LOL'd at full bundles on the coochie, because uh...relatable. lol
"Everything fucking hurts, but everything is still fucking here, and it is with that knowledge that I lean completely in to this vulnerability, this uncertainty, this hope." Beautiful and deeply relatable, sending you hugs.